Where I go to feel small
The overwhelm, the blindness, the deafness, the soul sucking fear of the unknown. These are just a few that I’ve made agreements with over the years of distraction, trauma, and expressing this big massive ball of energy I was given when I drew my first breath.
I’ve carefully discovered what gifts I’ve been given and what work I am called to do in life and business. Some invest in a college degree, I’ve invested in being a student of coaching since 2006 (although I did get a B.S. in Biology that I enjoyed but did nothing with).
I paid people ahead of me and put myself in a position to be exposed, my blindspots called out, and it has never been a moments pause when it came to going deeper. This is where I live.
Sometimes, in between living, I need to breath… to feel small. This is how I regroup and realign. So I go to the mountains… the big ones! Recently, on a trip to the Canadian Rockies, I found myself walking in the shadows of Mother Nature’s cathedrals. The whispers of truth I hear between the light rays passing through my camera feel like a warm soaking of spring rain over the parched desert of my heart. What do I hear from my Creator?
You have purpose. We have work to do. Break your agreements with your wounded self. You are not alone.
How do I know these truths are from the One who weaved together the fibers of my being in my mothers womb? Because truth always cuts through the fluff of my thoughts, fears, and noise with such precision and speaks to a part of myself I forget exists sometimes.
There is a calling over my business that absolutely cripples me right now. There is a breaking, a dying process, that is happening to release the completed works of the past. It’s messy and necessary. I am not a coach because I have the answers or because I am the master, I’m a coach because I am forever a student first. I choose to show up today to be ready for what comes next.
The door to growth, healing, and action is open, come in if you’re seeking too. The generations after us are waiting for you to break your own wounded agreements too.
